My little Buddy

My cute little fluffy head dog Winston died on Saturday February 25, 2012. We took him to Lonepeak in Draper. There are such wonderful people who work at Lonepeak. They all loved Winston dearly. I am grateful for good friends who understand how hard it is for me to let go of an animal. Animals are a huge part of my life, they make me happy. Winston was a happy, sweet, humorous dog and very loved by me.

Small

I have lived a small life. I want to live a small life. I don't need a big house, a big yard, a big family to be happy. I don't need to be a boss of a high end job. I like being the helper. Sometimes I feel I need to be doing more in life... like being the boss. And then I realize how happy I really am. Sometimes less is best. Small things make me happy, or should I say simple things make me happy. For example, I love to go for car rides. Just put me in a car and drive around and I am the happiest girl in town. I love rolling the windows down and letting the wind whip my hair. I don't even need the radio on. In fact, the radio would be a distraction. I am so grateful that I can be easily entertained, it makes life a whole lot easier for me and those around me.

My front porch

I love my front porch. I heard once that it was a little trashy to hang out in your front yard. I say fooey on you..ee. I have two plastic, white chairs with a plant in between them, I know it's not much but it is pleasant and comfortable. Dusk is my favorite time of night to come out and enjoy my front porch. I live across the street from a horse pasture. I love watching the horses and feeling the soft breeze in my hair. In July the crickets come out. What a relaxing sound.. the humming of crickets. I also love listening to the old sprinklers. The ones that make a sprockety sound.

I have fond memories of my front porch. When I was little I used to paint my mom's toenails on the porch stairs. We used to have a picnic table on the porch. We would eat dinner outside if it wasn't too hot. I would have time to sit out there for hours watching neighbors walk by. It just seems that nowadays I just don't have time to sit on my front porch and meditate. I choose to do other activites like write this blog. However, I notice in life that we go through phases and seasons. This apparantly is not the season to sit and ponder. Maybe in a few months things will slow down. Well, until then I need to remember to take deeper breaths.

" Never To Do List"

A few posts ago I said I would never be on facebook, get a cell phone etc. Well, there is one more thing that I said I would never ever do...ever. Join a singles ward again. And guess what? I did! And guess what? I love it. This particular singles ward is different from the typical single wards out there. It is for people aged 31 to 45. It serves those who have been divorced or who have never been married. I fall into the divorced group. It is so nice to be around other LDS people who have been divorced. They truly understand what I have been through. Now that my "never do list" is complete, I wonder what is in store for me now!...I'm scared.

Where have I been?...sheesh!

Wow, I am so sorry blog. I do not mean to neglect you. I have been away... far away. I don't know where to begin. I was in Kentucky a few times. It is beautiful there. I met some interesting people there ( to say the least). But I don't want to write about that. Right now I am very grateful for wonderful friends and a mother who has supported me through everything. Life is a kite sometimes. It can be flying high and then if it doesn't hit the current just right, it can end up in a tail spin.
I miss the sun.

New Beginnings

Life can be so good at times. Life can be so hard at times. It really is an emotional roller coaster. All the ups and downs. Right now life is great. Go me!!

What did I do?!!!

I just joined Facebook, one of the things I said I would never do!! The others were to own a cell phone and do a blog. I have done all three. Now what?